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I don’t like hormones…

July 10th, 2008 · 2 Comments · Gripes

You know that commercial with the little girl who keeps saying she doesn’t like chicken or broccoli. Well I don’t like taking hormones. We started the fertility process a bit sooner than I was planning and at this point, I am starting to understand the flood of American women who are going to India to hire surrogates. I have to watch everything and record everything. My diet, my medications, my temperature, and my moods. I just feel like at the moment I am perpetual bitch mode. I just want to sit in the dark and not talk to a living soul. I feel so sorry for my husband. He did not marry this crazed lunatic. I also feel a little out of place because while having a child would be a blessing, I just seem lazy compared to other women going through this process. I have been getting tons of advice through the support groups and fertility networks, but I don’t think having a child will define me as much as being an amazing addition to our great family. I am not going to be depressed for the rest of my life if this does not happen. I am 100% committed to the process but do I have to become obsessive about this?

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  • fragileheart

    Bah humbug that sounds like pure torture. I’m sure he understands 🙁

  • haleyhughes

    It does sound like torture. You have to record all these minute details, but not get stressed about it, because that would be counter productive. A Catch 22. Hopefully, this phase of the process will pass quickly and you can move on to the fun parts. There are fun parts, right?

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