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Catching Up

December 29th, 2009 · 5 Comments · life


I have been away from blogging as I handled a lot of personal things.  Our first IVF cycle failed, my mother has been ill, I had a flu/strep throat combo, my 13 year old cat has been sick and the holiday season just came out of nowhere!   Pete and I are charging forward with our second IVF attempt.  I am very nervous and trying really hard to balance a sense of hope with a sense of absolute dread.  My doctor performed a test to check my anti-mullerian hormone.  The test results suggest that I have a small egg supply.  This means that I won’t produce as many eggs as most women going through IVF.  On the 8th of January I start my stimulation medications. My hips and shoulders are already aching in anticipation of the shots that I have to have have each morning and evening.  I am just praying for a chance and trying my best to keep my spirits up. The Christmas season has been a blessing because it has given us a chance to step back and to give thanks for all the wonderful people in our life.  It is so easy to concentrate on what you think is missing  versus embracing what you have.


5 Comments so far ↓

  • Jenn

    Hey there Beeker,

    I don’t comment very often but I read everything you post. I just wanted to let you know, you’re not alone. Even when it seems like no one’s listening or no one’s there, I and your other readers are empathizing with your every word. I don’t know about everyone else, but this is true for me: I may not always have the right words to say, which usually keeps me from commenting, but you’re in my thoughts and prayers.

    Keep up with the positive thoughts. You have a talent for seeing the silver lining, and it shows in your writing: “It is so easy to concentrate on what you think is missing versus embracing what you have.” Don’t lose that. It’s good for your soul.

    All the best,

  • Debbie

    So good to see that you’re back and very understandable as to why you were away. A close friend of mine is going thru the same thing you are. I’m about to start my own journey down that road of “what-ifs” as well. Hang in there!

  • Amber

    I’m so sorry to hear this, I really hope this second go round is successful for you both. I’ll be thinking about you and keeping my fingers and toes crossed!

  • haleyhughes

    I’m thinking positive thoughts for you and hoping for the best. Hang in there.

    And have a Happy New Year.

  • Beekers

    Jenn: I really appreciate your comment. It made my day!

    Debbie: I hope that all goes well with you doctor.

    Amber: I am crossing everything!

    Haley: Congratulations on the birth of your son! Best wishes for the coming year.

    Thanks for all the good wishes!

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